I have the most amazing job, something I actually realized about 2 1/2 months into getting the position. I hesitated when asked about taking the position but reluctantly did. I am currently doing the COVID screenings at an emergency department and the first person you see before checking into the emergency room. I am a black female with an African accent that a lot of melanin-free individuals find me giving them instructions on company policies of the emergency room during a pandemic very abnormal. I was very alert, even concerned about my job the first 2 weeks because, besides patients not liking me, there were a few melanin-free nurses who were finding everything wrong with the way I did a simple COVID screening. But I have been blessed with the most amazing manager who listens to me before anyone else. The first month I was so scared I’ll lose my job because there were and still are a few nurses that just don’t like me and have complained or will come asked me questions about what some patients think about me or how they say I was not nice or inviting. OMG, I became worried, watching my back and forgetting whose I am. I forgot my God owns it all and everything He does has a reason. Until one day the head of administration came by to check on me and see how things were going. She thanked me for all I do, asked me if I needed anything if the process set up was working, and reminded me I was the face of the company because I was the first person patients see before getting service. On my way home that day I apologized to God for my doubt in Him and His promise for me. I’ve gotten so much racism in this state since I’ve been here sometimes it messes with my faith. God spoke to me and said you were asked to be in that position because there are patients who want and need your kindness before they see a doctor. You are the first person they see, you have a gift you’ve always shared, this is another opportunity to continue to share it at a larger serving skill. When I got home and parked, I bend my head on the car wheels, took a minute to ask God to please forgive me and give me His strength to keep moving. Every time I pray, I’ll say, “Lord, I don’t know why I’m here, but I’ll wait for your directions”. This one of the hardest positions I’ve ever held in my life. And I realized my melanin-free patient just doesn’t want to take directions from a melanin-filled person with an accent so they get rude, disrespectful, and act like I don’t know my job. So when they do complain to the melanin-free nurses that don’t favor me much, they blow it up, but all of that dies when it gets to the ones that are on my side. I forgot at the rescue so miraculous only my heavenly Father could give me. He has done so much for me; from helping me with my self-confidence, hope opened my eyes to individuals (including family) that didn’t have my best interest at heart. But sadly, that gratitude wears off over time, and soon new worries stole my attention, making me forget there is a reason for this adventure He has me on. God’s ultimate proof happened 2,000 years ago, for me to have unshakable confidence, thank you JESUS.
That’s how I look at work. FYI I’m not a nurse tho.